This is a lonely night again...

I just came back from yam cha with my friend who called Rhu Bing. Now I stay in my quiet room, the lonely feeling is coming out from my heart again...not only tonight, this a few nights. Now Im trying to start my Law assignment, but still dont have the motivation to do it, why arr??? I really really need to thank of my friend who called Michelle, she always chat with me. Actually she is a good girl, but her boyfriend treat her not well, really hope that she will be fine soon. When will I find a happy life, hoping...where are my friends??? dont know...But I heard that Howard said Sharie is coming back soon, Im so happy, she is one of my best friend also.haha.

Why Im choosing this way in my life?

Im working while Im studying...I know this is a difficult way for me, but why I still will choose it? I also dont know why, but one of the fact which I can know is I really dont feel like I want to let myself to have alot of free time, bcoz when Im having free time, I will feel alone, lonely...and then always think someting about all my past memories...Everyday I really hope that I have so many close friends around me, but...I have realised that they all are getting far aways from me and seldom talk with me. I appreaciate you all and need to thank you all bcoz you all was accompanying me in my last two semesters.

Alson's mood in currently!!!

Im really really feeling down and alone in currently. I couldnt get into dream for two nights ago. Im missing my parents and the cute baby in my house. I hope to have some support from my parents, but they dont understand me as well. I have come to KL here for around 16 months ago. Currently Im working as an house agent while Im studying, but this is not easy for me. At first, I really need to thank my best best friends such as Howard, Sharie, Ee How, Michelle.... but...haix...recently I have realised that some of my close friends and buddy are getting far away from me, I really felt sad, but I didnt tell them what Im feeling bcoz I dont want them to worry about this. I just hope they can understand me. Now Im feeling that I have been abandon by them. They seldom talk to me...last time who was my buddy, now they are becoming strangers...Sorry for them if I did anythings wrong for them...You all are my best friends in my life. My heart is getting pain...

First time on writting blog!!!

Im Alson,this is my 1st time to create my own blog. Maybe my english writting is poor,but I will try my best to express what I really hope to write in my blog. Recently,Im feeling down,depressed and alone. This is the reason why I have chosen writting blog to express my feeling,maybe my close friends around me they dont understand what am I thinking currently. Im so foolish bcoz Im still thinking whether I want to expose my blog to those my close friends and let them know my feeling or just keep this Alson's feeling blog quietly....