加油^1^

曾经真正爱过就足够了，要懂得在什么时候放手，让不再爱你的人去找寻属于他自己的幸福。执着只会让自己不开心，徘徊在当初的回忆。爱并不是单方面去付出，单方面去容忍你爱的人。希望我的朋友会走出伤心的阶梯，前面美好快乐的阶梯还有很长，等着我们一步一脚印的去实现。最近我有个女生的朋友，我看见了她很不开心，所以特意写了这篇文章来鼓励她。她是个很好的女生，并在此希望她那甜美的笑容会再一次展现出来，加油^1^

Something that I want to say to my ex-gf

At first, I really need to apologize to my ex-gf, I appreciate that what you did for me before. Maybe before I shouldn't have bad temper or scold you, that is the things make me feel regret. Recently I were unhappy, but this unhappy life make me to understand somethings again that which I forgot long time ago, ' If you really love someone, you will hope that she is happy and can find someone who is suitable for her.' Yes, you found him, so you should treasure him in your life. Hmm..I of couse will send my wishing to you. Always be happy^^ Im ok in KL

I really feel stress long time ago...I need a new beginning!!!Arr!!!

Haiz...my mid term results were very bad, my feeling also is very down. Everyday I just hope people around me are happy, but I never think of myself, who will bring happiness to me? Sometimes I will feel very stupid bcoz I did some stupid things in my life, but no one will appreciate it. I think that I will not do it again anymore, that is really suck. I hope to have a new love relationship but I couldn't find, it have make be tired. I just hope to have someone who really really care of me and I also love her so much, I don't want to chase someone who feel lonely and just want to have a relationship, that one is really no point for me. This also is the reason why sometimes I still cant forget bout my ex-gf bcoz I still haven't find a girl is better than her or love me so much and care of me so much. In a relationship,I don't want there is just me do everythings for her and my gf and she not so cares of me. Now, im feeling tired, and I really will stop to do everytings those the stupid things, I hate myself, I need a new beginning start from now( 15 Augst 2009-14.28pm ). If one day when you realise why Alson will become like that, don't ask why, bcoz you all couldn't ask what is my feeling before. Im a normal human also, got feeling also, will feel sad also. Yet, there is still have some of my friends will care of me, Im so glad to meet them.

Am I going to achieve the goal?

I'm feeling a bit nervous and worried now!!! Because tomorrow I'm going to have my 1st business. I'm asking myself one question...Am I going to achieve the goal? This is an answer that I'm really not sure. One most important thing that which I know is I must be confident to face all the troubles. Maybe this time I will not be successful. If I really fail in this business, I must make sure that this will be the last failure for me, I will not give up anymore. ' You cant ask for chances, because chances are always created by yourself ' , this sentence always exist in my heart. Wish the god will bless me.

想要对Ms.C说的话

你是个好女生，真的很好，但我始终不可能配得上你。可能是我们将来始终都会有分开的一天，我怕会伤害到你，所以我选择了我现在这一条路，希望你会明白。现在的我，对爱情已失去了大部份的信心，已不能再给到我身边的人一个肯定。也许我身边很多朋友都会误会我，也他们都会批评我，但我并不在意，因为我心里的感受没人会明白。我现在发现了我的父母也不了解我，他们也没给机会和时间试着去了解。但我不会怪所有的人，可是我发现到我身边还有一些了解我的朋友。

回家的心情

今天是我回到槟城的第二天，心情都是一般。每当我回到来这里时，我总会想去一个我在这里失去过的人，已过了一年了。这也是当初我去了KL后就很不想再经常回到这里来的原因。每当我回到这里来时，我总会想起了当时和她在一起的回忆，去过的地方，走过的每一条街。当每当我要回到KL时，我也只能把这些回忆再一次的留弃在这里。就这样的，一直重复的，回忆也慢慢变淡了。这一次回来也不例外。有时候会很傻，希望在街上可以碰上她，但机会渺茫。有时候很傻，会驾车到她家附近逛，但始终碰不见她。明天我就要回了，希望她和她男友可以开心在一起。她始终会有自己的生活，我也会有我自己的生活。

This is a lonely night again...

I just came back from yam cha with my friend who called Rhu Bing. Now I stay in my quiet room, the lonely feeling is coming out from my heart again...not only tonight, this a few nights. Now Im trying to start my Law assignment, but still dont have the motivation to do it, why arr??? I really really need to thank of my friend who called Michelle, she always chat with me. Actually she is a good girl, but her boyfriend treat her not well, really hope that she will be fine soon. When will I find a happy life, hoping...where are my friends??? dont know...But I heard that Howard said Sharie is coming back soon, Im so happy, she is one of my best friend also.haha.

Why Im choosing this way in my life?

Im working while Im studying...I know this is a difficult way for me, but why I still will choose it? I also dont know why, but one of the fact which I can know is I really dont feel like I want to let myself to have alot of free time, bcoz when Im having free time, I will feel alone, lonely...and then always think someting about all my past memories...Everyday I really hope that I have so many close friends around me, but...I have realised that they all are getting far aways from me and seldom talk with me. I appreaciate you all and need to thank you all bcoz you all was accompanying me in my last two semesters.

Alson's mood in currently!!!

Im really really feeling down and alone in currently. I couldnt get into dream for two nights ago. Im missing my parents and the cute baby in my house. I hope to have some support from my parents, but they dont understand me as well. I have come to KL here for around 16 months ago. Currently Im working as an house agent while Im studying, but this is not easy for me. At first, I really need to thank my best best friends such as Howard, Sharie, Ee How, Michelle.... but...haix...recently I have realised that some of my close friends and buddy are getting far away from me, I really felt sad, but I didnt tell them what Im feeling bcoz I dont want them to worry about this. I just hope they can understand me. Now Im feeling that I have been abandon by them. They seldom talk to me...last time who was my buddy, now they are becoming strangers...Sorry for them if I did anythings wrong for them...You all are my best friends in my life. My heart is getting pain...

First time on writting blog!!!

Im Alson,this is my 1st time to create my own blog. Maybe my english writting is poor,but I will try my best to express what I really hope to write in my blog. Recently,Im feeling down,depressed and alone. This is the reason why I have chosen writting blog to express my feeling,maybe my close friends around me they dont understand what am I thinking currently. Im so foolish bcoz Im still thinking whether I want to expose my blog to those my close friends and let them know my feeling or just keep this Alson's feeling blog quietly....